Last spring, one of my friends from high school was killed in a car crash. Every once in a while (meaning- three times since it happened), I'll go to his facebook because he'll come up on my sidebar as someone I should "say hello" to, or "reconnect" with. Today is (was? weird.) his birthday, which put him once again on my side bar, which put me once again at his facebook.
I can't decide if it's weird or not that people still write on his wall. Every time I visit his page, I debate this with myself, and spend at least a few moments thinking about it. People will write stories like, "I wished you were here today so that I could tell you about...." or memories or of course the "I miss you bro..." or "You were so wonderful." Over the summer, I was looking and I saw that one girl wrote something containing the words, "I loved you so much..." And I'm thinking, "Dude, I don't want to write this to someone after they are gone, I want them to KNOW now that I love them." (and not that he didn't with her, I'm just saying.) And I'm wondering, does he know that people are writing? Or does it even matter to him since it's party time with Jesus? And is it okay for me to be reading what people are saying? I feel like it's really personal. Does it help his family to go read what people are writing, or does it just make it worse? And does it really even help the people that are writing? But the answer to that one is yes, I'm positive. Because I write things to people that I never intend for them to read, and it does help.
But still. Is this weird? Is it weird that he still has a facebook? Is it weird that someone wrote happy birthday on his facebook? ...does that make them a jerk? All of it-- I just can't decide.
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